Vroom-Vroom

Last night something happened that felt like a dream come true.  Truly, it was monumental for me.  When Caden was first diagnosed, many thoughts started circling through my mind: Would he die before attending a dance, or learning how to drive, or going on a date, or kissing a girl for the first time, or graduating high school, or going on a mission, or getting married.... You get the idea.  I was consumed with things that he may not ever experience.  In fact, one day, when I knew the parking garage would be near-empty, I let him drive up and down the entrance ramp.  It was an amazing feeling to see his face light up after weeks of immeasurable hardships- he never imagined I would let him (seeing as he was 12 years old at the time).  And the fact that he didn't even ask to do it made it so much better.  Surprises are the best!

So, last night as I was signing him up for Driver's Ed, I got a bit nostalgic.  It was an amazing thing to feel some of those same difficult feelings, yet marvel that we were at a place where just one of the worries I had could finally be put to rest.  Caden is going to learn how to drive!!  My gorgeous child is growing into such an amazing man.  We've been working since the day he turned 15 on a few key points, making sure to tell him things as we drive around, but I can't wait for the "real" instructions to begin for him.  And, if you can keep a secret, I'll tell you: I have already taken him out driving.  It was around our Loop about a dozen times, but he was able to practice so many of those first, new skills that feel so exhilarating the first few times.  I am giddy for him to learn.  I remember the freedom and the power it brought me, almost like it was my first real steps into adulthood.  It made me feel so grown up.  Oh, my sweet innocence.

I feel so fortunate to be able to see not just Caden, but all of my children grow.  While I do wish that each day didn't fly by so quickly, I am so grateful that I get to spend each day with them.  I count each day as such a blessing, see each milestone as such a miracle.  With each inch grown, each clothing size packed away, each crack of his voice, I marvel that I get to see Caden become a grown man.  He's proven himself to be one many times over, however now we get to see the physical transformation with our eyes.

So, beginning October 17th, we get to have an addition on our car insurance!!!

Gosh, that feels amazing!